Eminem lose yourself COVER!

Madness

OASIS

ONE OF THE GREATEST SONG


Hold up!
Hold on!
Don't be scared,
You'll never change what's been and gone
May your smile, (may your smile)
Shine on, (shine on)
Don't be scared, (don't be scared)
Your destiny may keep you warm,

'Cause all of the stars,
Have faded away
Just try not to worry,
You'll see them someday,
Take what you need,
And be on your way and
Stop crying your heart out

Get up, (get up)
Come on, (come on)
Why you scared? (I'm not scared...)
You'll never change what's been and gone

'Cause all of the stars,
Have faded away
Just try not to worry,
You'll see them some day,
Take what you need,
And be on your way and
Stop crying your heart out

'Cause all of the stars,
Have faded away
Just try not to worry,
You'll see them someday.
Just take what you need,
And be on your way and
Stop crying your heart out

We're all of the stars,
We're fading away.
Just try not to worry,
You'll see us someday.
Just take what you need,
And be on your way and
Stop crying your heart out... [4x]

I should really start writing down the things i do everyday, then i will know how meaningless my life is.
I need purpose. NOW.
Because i don't see anything meaningful about the industry that i most propably would be stepping in.
Which is, by the way, depressing.

I LOVE PRISON BREAK THIS MUCH!!!

I can't believe it, i was surfing youtube and i found this! HAHAHAH I LOVE IT! It's crazily awesome. check it out:

WHEN KIDS TRY TO BE ADULTS, THIS IS WHAT YOU GET.
HAHAH























THIS IS ONE GREEDY BUT HONEST KID.

this is what i call PERFORMING!!

I LOVE ACOUSTIC MUSIC

boyceavenue actually made it. they got a record deal after putting their songs on myspace. Seriously, they are good!

fundamentals of life

I got this story in my email and felt that its enriching how much a story can tell and relate to life.

The Mayonnaise Jar

When things in your life seem, almost too much to handle,
When 24 Hours in a day is not enough,
Remember the mayonnaise jar and 2 cups of coffee.

A professor stood before his philosophy class
And had some items in front of him.
When the class began, wordlessly,
He picked up a very large and empty mayonnaise jar
and proceeded to fill it with golf balls.

He then asked the students, if the jar was full.
They agreed that it was.

The professor then picked up a box of pebbles and poured
them into the jar. He shook the jar lightly.
The pebbles rolled into the open Areas between the golf balls.

He then asked the students again if the jar was full. They agreed it was.

The professor next picked up a box of sand and poured it into the jar.
Of course, the sand filled up everything else.
He asked once more if the jar was full. The students responded with a unanimous 'yes.'

The professor then produced two cups of coffee from under the table and poured the entire contents into the jar, effectively
filling the empty space between the sand. The students laughed.

'Now,' said the professor, as the laughter subsided,
'I want you to recognize that this jar represents your life.
The golf balls are the important things - family,
children, health, Friends, and Favorite passions –
Things that if everything else was lost and only they remained, Your life would still be full.

The pebbles are the other things that matter like your job, house, and car.

The sand is everything else --The small stuff.

'If you put the sand into the jar first,' He continued,
'there is no room for the pebbles or the golf balls.
The same goes for life.

If you spend all your time and energy on the small stuff,
You will never have room for the things that are important to you.

So...

Pay attention to the things that are critical to your happiness.
Play With your children.
Take time to get medical checkups.
Take your partner out to dinner.

There will always be time to clean the house and fix the disposal.

'Take care of the golf balls first --
The things that really matter.
Set your priorities. The rest is just sand.'

One of the students raised her hand and inquired what the coffee represented.

The professor smiled.
'I'm glad you asked'.

It just goes to show you that no matter how full your life may seem,
there's always room for a couple of cups of coffee with a friend.'

Kevjumba

This video makes me smile!

MJ post

What is wrong with people??? At first when Michael Jackson was alive, everyone took him as a joke. Making fun of him as a Wacko Jackco, a molester, a freak and more mean stuffs..

Now that he's gone, everyone just wanna be part of it. At the MJ memorial service, lots of artistes went up there to say their last words. But i truly wonder if that is what they really thought of him?? Or is it just guilt, because when he was alive, they doubted his innocence.

Of course, i'm not saying that all of them are like that. There are some who really loved him and were really privileged to be loved by him.

I really wished i had a chance to see him live on stage. It has to be phenomenal!! It would be an honour to just know him. RIP.

MEDIA OWES HIM BIG TIME. ALL THEY EVER DID WAS TO HARM HIM. ARE YOU SURE THAT NEGATIVE COMMENTS ABOUT MJ ARE WHAT PEOPLE WANNA READ??

ARE WE THAT CRUEL AS A HUMAN BEING??

this is crap. FINALLY he's free from all this bullshit.

FOR ALL MY FRIENDS

There some people whom i just don't wanna have any relation with. I'm a judgemental person which expains my few friends. ahahha but i'm totally fine with it!
I do love and care for those whom i consider friends even if they doesn't feel the same way back.

UNITY BASKETBALL TEAM

BEST TEAM EVER!
I had the best moments of my secondary school life with them. We went through so much together. I gotta say, this is one unique team.

#13 Heeday: Had lotsa fun with this girl. i'm so glad we still keep in contact after we graduated! Though we're all very busy now!!! LOVE HER!

#15 Shi yah: A talented player. Great center.! All the best for her future =)

#8 Jing ni #5 Caiyan and Suk khwan: I really do think they are sweet and nice people. =) I'll be there for them if they ever need me.

#14 Irene #12 Jessica: These two logger heads always gave me a headache. Hahaha hilarious moments on court. Quarrelled with jessica while dribbling the ball up and also fighting while running back for defense. HAHAH LOVE IT! Irene's one good player. Seriously. Kind of a emo-cool girl. Interesting. =)

#6 Nessa. Best defender and rebounder i ever met. haahah. so glad she got into NYP. Gotta meet her often cos i don't really see much of her in school. LOVE HER.

#7 Yvonne: My best friend and partner on court =) BFFFFFF! ahhahaha LOVES

#11 Priscilla: My best friend=)) BFFFFF! ahhaha LOVES

#4 Adeline: Didn't really talk to her much but i know she's doing fine=)

I MISS THE THAILAND TRIP WE HAD!!!

(i'm not quite sure with the jersey nos. cos it was so long back!)

#4 small Yvonne #8 Huda #10 Renee #13 Wani: MY JUNIORS!. though i don't really hang around much with them. I still love them. Memorable times we shared.

#6 Jocelyn: People might have the wrong impresion of her at first sight but i think she is actually a sweet girl. A pity i didn't get to know her better but she is a hardworking player.

#9 Aileen: Worked really hard to get into the team and finally did with her designated no. 9!

BEST FRIENDS FOREVER

Known them since sec 1!! HAHAHHAH I think i was a bully in this group =). AINA was my most targetted victim in unity. ahhaha so easy to bully.

AINA (top left): She's the true loser whom always calls me a loser. HAHAH Porn star in thailand. ahhaha stripped for the nurses ahahhahah. okay she's gonna hate me for this but who cares.

ASHILAH (right): I don't get what she's saying most of the time ahhaha. she's a confusing person. ahhah Come on girl! go get a job.!! Sorry tahat we didn't really do much for your birthday. I promise we'll make it up to you!!!! FORGIVE US DEAREST ASHILAH!!!!

PRISCILLA (middle): I used to bully her in class too but she's too obssessed with studies which is driving us insane! We don't get to meet up much because of A's Hope she'll do well!! =)

Known them since sec 1 too. Same class during sec 1 and 2. We had lotsa fun in class.Really glad that we're still together!!! LOVE THEM SO. We're the supportive BFFs ahahha.

XueYi (red shirt): No worries man, you're gonna make it! Trust me!!! Honestly, you're a good singer. HAVE CONFIDENCE IN YOURSELF!!!

Zahidah (longsleeve): This is one crazy bitch ahahha but i love her!!! A great friend. BUT PLEASE STOP SMOKING!!! hahahah

Yvonne (white shirt): LOVE HER. She's always there for me. Even if we quarrelled. I feel terrible because of the way i treated her during my childish days ahahha. You know you can count on me for anything. Just call me anytime and i'll be there. (oh man. this reminds me of MJ's i'll be there)

I don't have much of their pics!! Gotta take some with my phone the next time!
Really love them so much!

Including EULYNN and HUAN QING. (no pics with them)
Eulynn is the nicest girl i ever met ahahhahah. No kidding. ou gotta know her for yourselves.

Never thought that i could find true friends in poly. But they proved me wrong. Hahahah.

Though i don't show. YOU KNOW I LOVE YOU GUYS RITE!!??? =)))

Christine: Hey buddy. you seem very stressed and upset for the past few week. Anything you wanna share??? Call me k?? Anytime!!! hahahah Gotta relax, look at the positiv part of life!!!

Can't lose any of them. No matter what, i'll be there for them. Its a promise i made to myself.

STRINGS MATES
Adele: She's a great friend with great talent in music. Truely admire her. But i don't think we can ever work together in music. She's too good. ahhahah Gotta work a lifetime to be able to work with her.

Queenie and Angela:Crazy juniors. ahhah I think we're gonna have lotsa fun tgt!!

Jeremy: though we always bully him. I guess he knows we still love him ahhaha.

Ridwan: love him.!! Respect him. hahahah Great president!! Haven't been hanging out with him much lately. He's too busy with his workload!!!

Phileo: I like this guy. He's a quiet and nice guy yet interesting! hahaha love his hair!! (I LOVE NICK JONAS!!!) I actually admire him. Hope to know him better then we can hangout more often, do some music. BUT HE"S A MAN WITH FEW WORDS!! i'm not very good with music YET, have a lot to learn from him!!!

Cherie: A great girl. hahah Love her. Great singer too. Hope to learn more from her.

Haida: LOVE HER!!! She's one friend that i can really have fun with =)))

Love them all. Hope to get to know the others better too!!!=))

SUBBERS (SUBWAY)

I think i made some GREAT friends there. Though all of them that i really like are leaving. So sad!!!

VALERIE, SHAO AND NITHIYA are people whom i really wanna stay in contact with! They are such nice people!!

Never really thought that there would be such nice people there especially there are so many nasty people in subway!!! HATE THEM!! Really dread working with them.

TRAVEL THE WORLD TGT!!!!

Valerie: Your might say some things taht hurt you. Like you're not a worthy investment part. I fell for you!!! But i'm sure you know she LOVES you!!! Believe in yourself my friend!!!

Nithiya and Shao are now in other parts of the world and i miss them!!! They are such nice people. I promise i'll visit you guys there in the states and australia. TAKE CARE!!!

STAY IN CONTACT K???!!!

ALL THE BEST TO YOU GUYS.

CALL ME UP FOR ANYTHING!! YOU KNOW I'M FRIENDY HAHAHAH=)))

THE STORY BEGINS: chapter 1-hope in the lost future

Its time for a change.
Kind of sick of red. now i'm into gray. =)

it's story time.

this story describes a possible scenario of the nearing future. the future where almost all natural resources has been drained off and the selfish survival of the unfair society.

the sky was gray and still. no sunlight was able to penetrate through those thick
dark chemical clouds. poisonous gas circulating the environment. minimal oxygen were exchanged. life was a misery to all except the rich and government.

because of the menacing environment, animals could not survive, plants barely sprouting and human struggled to die. the harshness was unbearable yet wasn't merciless enough to kill. the government lived in a humongous enclosed land, well protected by the external. plants and animals were grown and nurtured in that enclosed land with artificial light and nutrients. these animals and plants were food to everyone. however, supplies were limited. food would be packed into cans to be distributed to the people in bulks.

people who worked in the government get to stay in that enclosed land, with fresh food everyday, a house and a healthy environment. children were pressured to study hard to get into the government so that the family could benefit from it. every year, the 5 smartest kids in the state will be recruited by the government. life as a commoner were horrible.there weren't many jobs left so all they could to was to wait for the guards from the government to sent food to them. they had the same food everyday. it was so meaningless to live.

finally, the exam for the search of the 5 smartest kids is approaching in a month time. and the people began to work hard to prepare themselves...

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It's yet another long post.

5th June. An inspirational day for me.
It was YVONNE'S restless concert and i saw something different and glowing in her.
It made me realise the pride, sweat, bittersweet happiness that she felt at that moment. Those dance moves were amazingly impressive; every strikes and steps were precise, glorious and beautiful.

Yvonne is one of my basketball teammate cum BFF and i must say she was a talented player. Who would have thought that she would choose the path of the upper class arts and be a dancer. I guess it came as a shock for most and the irritating doubt of the minority, of course. IT'S REALITY, what do you expect?

Everyone would wanna see you fall hard, with your for limbs spread out up facing the stunning despiseful glare of hollow eyes.

She went against all odds to do what she like. Treating herself as a transparency piece of selfless soul. Dancing with class, passion and freedom.
That would be what i wanna achieve; TO BE ABLE TO FEEL PROUD OF MYSELF AND DOINGS.

As the saying goes: life is short, live to the fullest. No time to waste.

I joined the orchestra because i really wanna perform and enjoy that moment of exploded excitement, joy and pride when the applause sound, covering up the whole hall like a stereo system. It's like you're the center of the earth. Its just indescribable.

But i don't wanna rush into it. I wanna taste every part of it in excruciating details.
I need a strong heartfelt pat that gives me courage.
I admit I'm a timid piece of shit in a weird shell which says fearless and adventurous. I n actual fact i hate to step out of my comfort zone.

I fear the doubtful stares. I fear the mean comments. I fear the rejection. And i fear the silent applause.

And then one day. I made up my mind to never regret and
JUST DO IT.
I tried performing in some events and it just made me feel empty and useless. Its just not the moment i thought i would experience. It was like i was irrelevant and insignificant. I DON'T WANNA BE IRRELEVANT AND INSIGNIFICANT.

So i have decided to practice hard. So peeps, swing by the strings room if you wanna look me up. I don't wanna play the wrong notes and make no difference or impact on the orchestra. I WANNA BE RELEVANT.

I WANNA BE A PERFORMER. A TRUE PROFESSIONAL.

thanks yvonne =) the inspiration was priceless. i hope you can choreograph a dance to my songs one day.

Some things i would LOVE to do one day

OKAY! It's time for upgrading. Time to post videos. I don't really know how to do it..so i hope it will work. Do i just embed it?

anyways.
I'l tell you about the video. It is not made by me, sadly. I wished actually. It's a very cool video. so cool that it made me wanna learn cinematography. If there's such a thing.
Idea may be simple but its good and it turned out, one of its kind.
so you see, SIMPLE IS GOOD!



ONE MORE THING!!!
I have to show anyone who's reading this VI-D-EO!!!!!
HAHAHHAHA I THINK ITS HILARIOUS! i love this guy. for those who don't know, he's kevjumba. The guy whom i expressed admiration once in the older post. I think he's funny, and he shows complete honesty. hahah



I too, wonder why the main lead for dragonball is white!??? WTF is this? The world is in a mess, a huge confusion. I think thats why the show just turns me off.

What a meaningless bang

What if you found out that thelifespan of our beloved Earth is nothing but the lifespan of a burning matchstick. From the time you strike it on fire and till it dies off. Its short ain't it?
Its like everything ignites and die off in an instant. Then we would have to worry, though ths "ignition" migt be considered long to us, its time may be out; it might just die off any minute.
This process is also known as the BIG BANG(which scientists love to refer as). And no it is not the popular korean band i'm refering to. The big bang will happen when Earth has reached its maximum lifespan and then with a blast, eveything would be destroyed, leaving us in dust.

It's the same for life. We are born, we live for a while-happy moments, sad moments, awful moments. and then we die.

No one can tell us the purpose for living.

What is the whole purpose of living things anyway ? To live together in Earth with a mutual relationship maintained by eating each other for survival? What is the whole point of living when we have to die anyway? What is the prupose of even having discoveries when it is left behind on Earth to be passed down from generations to generations and then of course newer discoveries again for future generations and the cycle goes on; for what?

Okay some of you might be confused by now. You see, what i'm trying to say is. Some of you may say that the purpose of life is to experience and learn. Thats how knowledge is passed down, whatever we do now is for the future. You see, everything has an end. So what will happen when humankind extinct?

A new species will pop out? And then what? That species will go through the same thing? Maybe make discoveres or even rediscovering what we have discovered. Its like history repeating itself, only difference is they don't ever know that this history even existed. It's like a computer system. It reboots itself, regenerating ever process all over again from the beginning.

Sometimes i'll unbelievably believe that there is such a thing as matrix. Though it sounds corny.
You know what, who knows?
MAYBE ITS TRUE.

Pardon me if this post sounds absurd or meaningless, cos i don't realy know what i'm saying myself. HAAH
I just hate the crap of people telling me to get a purpose in life when i don't find any.

LATENESS STINKS

I have a new resolution. I know its abit late for the year but who says i can't have it anytime i want. Okay that is to never be late again. I know it sounds impossible. And for those who knows me are gonna think its some knd of joke and that i just say it for the sake of it because i've been saying about it for so long and never once keep to it.

You know what. It takes time. To me improvement is something that i'll work towards. As long as i'm getting earlier for every appointment its fine thenone da i'm gonna be punctual!!! Lateness do really stinks. It just mak people think that i don't care, lazy and that i take things for granted. Let me tell you this, HELL NO, I DO CARE. so you know what, don't ever assume that those freakng adjectives reflect lateness, because they are two different matters.

Don't you know what is a habit!!?? It has nothing to do with laziness and nonchalent behaviours if you must know, lateness is a habit and it cannot be changed in a month, what more a day!?
However i have to admit its a bad habit that comes with a heavy price.

Why do i say that?

look at these:
1. piano exam
2.sentosa job
3.almost got debarred
4.wrong impression of my personality
5.even i hate myself

All these happened because i was late. I lost them and i feel like killing myself!! But of course i won't. I'm scared and i'm a coward to even swallow sleeping pills. (i'd always fear that i would sleep through my life if i swallowed them.)

So that is why i've decided to get rid of that haunting habit. Its geting on my nerve cos its sticking to me like i'm honey. you know what you pestering piece of shit, go find somewhere else to shit on.

Oh and i can't say for sure that i'll never be late again in my life but I'LL TRY. And stop forcing or threatening me to treat as a punishment if i'm late, cos it has no effect and i'll get irritated. I don't know why. And please don't doubt me, this piece of shit has been my best buddy ever since i was born and its f!#%ing hard to ditch it away. =)

this blog has OFFICIALLY revived.

Man...its been so long since i last blogged. i don't have much to blog about. been busy with exams and now...life?
i've been watching these youtube videos of this guy, kevjumba. its entertaining and this guy is really interesting!! i love the way he talks, though it looks lame, it really does leave you hanging with questions that you never really asked yourself about.

My plans for the future.

1. i wanna go to NTU.
2. get some certs needed for the admission of NTU.
3. go overseas with my friends. pris, sy, tz, our plan to taiwan, is it still on?
4. sleep by 12am. i've been having this really bad habit of sleeping at 5 or sometimes even 7!! and i feel so so so unhealthy, its like i'm dying, my body clock is all messed up. and i can't really think well.

Thats all for now.

OH AND I HAVE TO GET A JOB!!! OR I'M GONNA BE BROKE COS MY MOM IS TRYING TO FORCE ME TO GET A JOB BY NOT GIVING ME MY ALLOWANCE!!!