Is there ever compensation in imperfection?

Has humanity taught us to respect everyone for who they are? I truly doubt so.

As the saying goes, never judge a book by its cover. However, in this realistic, fast paced and cruel world, we will never ever get to see that displayed in action.

Because the fact is, Beauty is an advantage.
If you don't look as good, you have to work doubly hard.
I'm not saying that nobody will like you if you don't possess the looks. It's just that it takes more time for people to understand you and discover your good points. But honestly, who has the time?

Even in an interview, they give you five minutes to introduce yourself and off you go. What can five freaking minute say about you? Your name? Your nervous state of mind? And of course the looks of yours!?

The bottom line is; when you don't look as good, you can't afford to be dumb, to be whiney, and to be weak.
I know you hate this world with all the reality checks they smacks us awake and reminding us that we are still alive but what can we do?

However I'm not saying that looks is everything. We can't condemn anyone based on looks. However the bitter truth is BEAUTY is an advantage over intellectual when it is in account of the first impression.
Good things always make people feel happy.

Let me describe a scenario for you. Imagine you're at a beach and there’s a lady in a bikini with tattoo all over her body. What will you think of her?
Cool? Rebellious? Loose?

You see.we judge.

The fact is, when she was young, her stepfather harassed her, and always taking advantage of her. But her stepfather has a weakness-he hates tattoo. Everytime her stepfather touches her, she will tattoo that spot. As time goes by, her whole body is covered with tattoo and he never wanted to touch her anymore.
Now tell me what do you think of her?

You see there is a reason behind everything everyone does.
It’s your choice to find out or to just live in a life of your ignorant judgement.

What I'm trying to say is we really got to spend time understanding the people around us before we end up alone.
If you’re a busy person, be sure you stop, and feel the humanity side of the world.
Because not everything is as beautiful as you think it is.

i'm dragging my faith

i really don't know what to blog about.
But i got to let this out because its unbearable and its haunting me like i'm some kind of a pastime hobby. every now and then.


That day after my performance, its like i'm suffering from some kind of aftermath. After my friends left and i watch the band perform.

i felt empty. i'm empty.
i don't know how to describe this.

the next day. i'm like a living dead.
it feels like i'm drowning with my head above the water.


i see people walking everywhere. and i just need some peace at fort.
i don't know what to expect from this. i don't even know what i want.
i'm blinded by the emotions i feel.
and even numb to the feelings i loved.

i'm ground-footed. everything's changing and i'm still clinging on stubbornly to the glimpse of hope my hallucination had created.

some kind of crappy joke of the year.

i bet i'll walk myself out of this.
for now, i'm epmty.