It's yet another long post.

5th June. An inspirational day for me.
It was YVONNE'S restless concert and i saw something different and glowing in her.
It made me realise the pride, sweat, bittersweet happiness that she felt at that moment. Those dance moves were amazingly impressive; every strikes and steps were precise, glorious and beautiful.

Yvonne is one of my basketball teammate cum BFF and i must say she was a talented player. Who would have thought that she would choose the path of the upper class arts and be a dancer. I guess it came as a shock for most and the irritating doubt of the minority, of course. IT'S REALITY, what do you expect?

Everyone would wanna see you fall hard, with your for limbs spread out up facing the stunning despiseful glare of hollow eyes.

She went against all odds to do what she like. Treating herself as a transparency piece of selfless soul. Dancing with class, passion and freedom.
That would be what i wanna achieve; TO BE ABLE TO FEEL PROUD OF MYSELF AND DOINGS.

As the saying goes: life is short, live to the fullest. No time to waste.

I joined the orchestra because i really wanna perform and enjoy that moment of exploded excitement, joy and pride when the applause sound, covering up the whole hall like a stereo system. It's like you're the center of the earth. Its just indescribable.

But i don't wanna rush into it. I wanna taste every part of it in excruciating details.
I need a strong heartfelt pat that gives me courage.
I admit I'm a timid piece of shit in a weird shell which says fearless and adventurous. I n actual fact i hate to step out of my comfort zone.

I fear the doubtful stares. I fear the mean comments. I fear the rejection. And i fear the silent applause.

And then one day. I made up my mind to never regret and
JUST DO IT.
I tried performing in some events and it just made me feel empty and useless. Its just not the moment i thought i would experience. It was like i was irrelevant and insignificant. I DON'T WANNA BE IRRELEVANT AND INSIGNIFICANT.

So i have decided to practice hard. So peeps, swing by the strings room if you wanna look me up. I don't wanna play the wrong notes and make no difference or impact on the orchestra. I WANNA BE RELEVANT.

I WANNA BE A PERFORMER. A TRUE PROFESSIONAL.

thanks yvonne =) the inspiration was priceless. i hope you can choreograph a dance to my songs one day.