i'm dragging my faith

i really don't know what to blog about.
But i got to let this out because its unbearable and its haunting me like i'm some kind of a pastime hobby. every now and then.


That day after my performance, its like i'm suffering from some kind of aftermath. After my friends left and i watch the band perform.

i felt empty. i'm empty.
i don't know how to describe this.

the next day. i'm like a living dead.
it feels like i'm drowning with my head above the water.


i see people walking everywhere. and i just need some peace at fort.
i don't know what to expect from this. i don't even know what i want.
i'm blinded by the emotions i feel.
and even numb to the feelings i loved.

i'm ground-footed. everything's changing and i'm still clinging on stubbornly to the glimpse of hope my hallucination had created.

some kind of crappy joke of the year.

i bet i'll walk myself out of this.
for now, i'm epmty.