What a meaningless bang

What if you found out that thelifespan of our beloved Earth is nothing but the lifespan of a burning matchstick. From the time you strike it on fire and till it dies off. Its short ain't it?
Its like everything ignites and die off in an instant. Then we would have to worry, though ths "ignition" migt be considered long to us, its time may be out; it might just die off any minute.
This process is also known as the BIG BANG(which scientists love to refer as). And no it is not the popular korean band i'm refering to. The big bang will happen when Earth has reached its maximum lifespan and then with a blast, eveything would be destroyed, leaving us in dust.

It's the same for life. We are born, we live for a while-happy moments, sad moments, awful moments. and then we die.

No one can tell us the purpose for living.

What is the whole purpose of living things anyway ? To live together in Earth with a mutual relationship maintained by eating each other for survival? What is the whole point of living when we have to die anyway? What is the prupose of even having discoveries when it is left behind on Earth to be passed down from generations to generations and then of course newer discoveries again for future generations and the cycle goes on; for what?

Okay some of you might be confused by now. You see, what i'm trying to say is. Some of you may say that the purpose of life is to experience and learn. Thats how knowledge is passed down, whatever we do now is for the future. You see, everything has an end. So what will happen when humankind extinct?

A new species will pop out? And then what? That species will go through the same thing? Maybe make discoveres or even rediscovering what we have discovered. Its like history repeating itself, only difference is they don't ever know that this history even existed. It's like a computer system. It reboots itself, regenerating ever process all over again from the beginning.

Sometimes i'll unbelievably believe that there is such a thing as matrix. Though it sounds corny.
You know what, who knows?
MAYBE ITS TRUE.

Pardon me if this post sounds absurd or meaningless, cos i don't realy know what i'm saying myself. HAAH
I just hate the crap of people telling me to get a purpose in life when i don't find any.

LATENESS STINKS

I have a new resolution. I know its abit late for the year but who says i can't have it anytime i want. Okay that is to never be late again. I know it sounds impossible. And for those who knows me are gonna think its some knd of joke and that i just say it for the sake of it because i've been saying about it for so long and never once keep to it.

You know what. It takes time. To me improvement is something that i'll work towards. As long as i'm getting earlier for every appointment its fine thenone da i'm gonna be punctual!!! Lateness do really stinks. It just mak people think that i don't care, lazy and that i take things for granted. Let me tell you this, HELL NO, I DO CARE. so you know what, don't ever assume that those freakng adjectives reflect lateness, because they are two different matters.

Don't you know what is a habit!!?? It has nothing to do with laziness and nonchalent behaviours if you must know, lateness is a habit and it cannot be changed in a month, what more a day!?
However i have to admit its a bad habit that comes with a heavy price.

Why do i say that?

look at these:
1. piano exam
2.sentosa job
3.almost got debarred
4.wrong impression of my personality
5.even i hate myself

All these happened because i was late. I lost them and i feel like killing myself!! But of course i won't. I'm scared and i'm a coward to even swallow sleeping pills. (i'd always fear that i would sleep through my life if i swallowed them.)

So that is why i've decided to get rid of that haunting habit. Its geting on my nerve cos its sticking to me like i'm honey. you know what you pestering piece of shit, go find somewhere else to shit on.

Oh and i can't say for sure that i'll never be late again in my life but I'LL TRY. And stop forcing or threatening me to treat as a punishment if i'm late, cos it has no effect and i'll get irritated. I don't know why. And please don't doubt me, this piece of shit has been my best buddy ever since i was born and its f!#%ing hard to ditch it away. =)

this blog has OFFICIALLY revived.

Man...its been so long since i last blogged. i don't have much to blog about. been busy with exams and now...life?
i've been watching these youtube videos of this guy, kevjumba. its entertaining and this guy is really interesting!! i love the way he talks, though it looks lame, it really does leave you hanging with questions that you never really asked yourself about.

My plans for the future.

1. i wanna go to NTU.
2. get some certs needed for the admission of NTU.
3. go overseas with my friends. pris, sy, tz, our plan to taiwan, is it still on?
4. sleep by 12am. i've been having this really bad habit of sleeping at 5 or sometimes even 7!! and i feel so so so unhealthy, its like i'm dying, my body clock is all messed up. and i can't really think well.

Thats all for now.

OH AND I HAVE TO GET A JOB!!! OR I'M GONNA BE BROKE COS MY MOM IS TRYING TO FORCE ME TO GET A JOB BY NOT GIVING ME MY ALLOWANCE!!!